Toward one year without ejaculating
After NO-CUM-masturbating during 223 following days it becomes gradually clear that I will not have an accidental ejaculation. So if I really want to cum, I have to decide doing so. Even my Cock, who needs to cum so badly, agrees with the idea of denial. I know it because “he” stiffens when I think of finishing unejaculated. Therein lays the problem. I need to decide to cum.
Along with my freedom of choice comes the responsibility. Am I ready to go back to day zero? Do I want to live less excited than as I live now? Once I cum, it’s over. It would cost me almost another Year to befall as excited as I feel now. Additionally, I don’t have to decide to cum now or today. At the moment masturbating without ejaculating feels too good to be discontinued.
After so much training, denying ejaculation befalls very natural to me. I don’t have to think much. My hand just stops anytime I am close to cum. Ejaculating, on the other hand, requires a decision I haven’t taken yet. Besides, I like to celebrate when I stop without ejaculating. The feat deserves to be honored by a following non-ejaculatory session. This certainly creates a loop. I would accept cumming after the loop, but the loop never ends.
Finally, the idea of remaining one year without ejaculating pleases me. I am sure that masturbating on day 365 will feel better than masturbating on actual day 223. Certainly, I would also wish to celebrate my uncummedness. That would bring me to day 366. What will come after day 366, I still do not know.
your no-cumming strategy and thoughts parallel my own, even though i’m only at day 31 of being unejaculated. your site is where i learned the no-cum approach, and i find that it is true: i’m always thinking of penis, whether i’m masturbating or not. the intensity of my masturbation sessions has increased by at least 2x. i worried the first few weeks that i’d have an accident, but it hasn’t happened. doesn’t mean it couldn’t, but i’m beginning to trust my penis and my hand. like you, my hand just stops when i’m close to cummming. i want the masturbatory loop and chronic penis stroking to never end. my goal right now is to get to 1/1/18 without ejaculation. perhaps, just maybe, in another 10 months after that, i’ll be albe to celebrate 365 days. keep up your effort, you’re absolutely right – don’t lose your 223 days of not cumming. congratulations on the achievement that you and your penis have made!